Thank you for sun and rain, for what you give and take away........

I heard this song today while cleaning. It is a great upbeat song and it went along with some thoughts I've had recently. The economy is bad and the building business has been down for a while now.

BUT, there are some good things that have come along with the slow time. If things hadn't been slow Denson and I wouldn't have been able to go to counseling. Really, what we thought was marriage counseling turned into individual counseling that helped both of us a lot!! Denson got and is getting to see Reese grow up. He has really been able to be a part of the day to day things that he wouldn't have had the chance to see. Also, I had an issue with depression a few months ago, to the point where I just wanted to sleep ALL day. Luckily, Denson was right there to step in and be mommy and to gently coax me into realizing I was indeed depressed. The last thing we've both realized is that we should have done things differently with money. Denson did save (thank goodness) and paid some things off. However, we didn't think a whole lot about buying this or that. I went to the grocery store and would buy what ever not even looking at the price. When things turn around, and I know they will, we will be a lot more cautious. I think of the verse Luke 16:10 "Whoever can be trusted with very little can also be trusted with much, and whoever is dishonest with very little will also be dishonest with much."

Our hope and happiness doesn't lie in what we have here on this earth. If God wants us to walk through the valley then that is what we'll do......he is in control. That leads me into another subject.........Reese and daycare.......

When I first quit my job, we put Reese in daycare a couple of days a week so that I could help Denson with payroll (no need for that now :) ) and to have time to clean, run errands, etc. I really struggled with being at home and glad that I had an oppurtunity to adjust over this last year. Over the last few months I have literally been broken after reading certain blogs that have dealt with the loss of a child. Here, I have a healthy little boy and I'm sending him to daycare????? One night I felt God telling me that it was time for Reese to be home everyday. I talked with Denson and at that time he wanted to wait. He wasn't sure that I could handle not having an "off" day. We are trying to get rid of any un-needed exspenses and that would help. But.....again, I tried to figure it out. I have been subbing at the daycare and thought that I could work enough to pay daycare. Well, yesterday I worked 9 hours!! That was a long day! So, I'm watching other kids to pay for mine to be in daycare??? That makes a whole lot of sense!

I didn't think I would say this but working at the daycare makes me appreciate my kids and gives me more patience. I think everything has a season but God is leading me in a different direction. God has equipped me to be a better mom and with His help I will be fine.
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On a much heavier not, please pray for baby Stellan. He is the son to a blog I read: www.mycharmingkids.net. He is having problems with his heart and things are not looking good. Check out her blog when you get a chance, but please pray for Stellan and his family.