So last week kicked my booty. I let the stress get to me. I pouted. I was bitter. And who did I think I was hurting? It makes me so angry at myself that I know better and yet do the same thing over and over again.
Sunday morning while teaching the 4/5 yr olds they taught me instead. We were doing a maze - the disciples at the bottom and you had to draw a line to Jesus who was in heaven where He has gone to prepare a place for us. Everyone mastered the activity and one little boy said "Can we take the wrong path to Jesus?". I sat there for a minute and I started to ask him why he wanted to do that. Then I thought to myself and then told him "No, you don't want to take the wrong path, trust me, Mrs. Sheila did that and it's not something you want to do.".
While he didn't understand what I was saying it really made me think. I know I didn't intentionally take the wrong path. Well I just didn't realize it because I was living for the moment. I wouldn't have volunteered to have my life go the direction it did. The heartache. The loneliness. The bitterness. The selfishness. The lies.
But. Without those things I wouldn't be where I am now. Without Jesus I would still be a lost soul searching. I then realized I took the path, the maze, the obstacle that led me to Jesus. Even if it all wasn't pleasant that is my life. I've learned a lot, yet still have lots more to learn. The difference now is that I have a Savior that is faithful. Standing on the promises of God!
Why do the evenings go by so fast? I have so much to do that by the time I start thinking about baths it's nearly 9:00 pm. Being tired doesn't help either. I drink coffee most nights but I can drink a cup and go straight to bed. As a matter of fact, I am dosing off while drinking coffee and writing. Sad I know.
Ok, I'll stop boring you. With. Useless. Information.
Reese Dean does not hide the fact that he loves all things construction. Love is really putting it lightly. This afternoon we see a truck hauling a big tractor. Reese says "I'm going to be that man one day." Then he says, "well, God might want me to be another man so ill just wait.".
I hope that he will keep his childlike faith for a long time!! He is just precious!
So today was the field trip to Montgomery. The bus ride wasn't too bad. Except for having to use the bathroom. I mistakenly had a cup of coffee and a glass of water prior to leaving. Big mistake! It wouldn't have been so bad if I had been the first use it. Instead 5 or 6 boys had used it. While the bus was moving. I'll let you use your imagination as to how that went. After being traumatized by that, someone had an upset tummy and let's just say that smell is still in my nose.
Going back to the field trip.....I really did enjoy it. Lots and lots of history! I would love to go back and see everything. The last part of the field trip was my favorite. We go up to the 6th floor to watch a live legislative session. We get up there and there are people everywhere. To be more specific, there were Hispanics at every turn. I don't think I've written about my opinion on the new law pertaining to illegal immigrants so ill just say i think it is awful and I dont agree with it AT ALL! My heart starts racing and it really hit me that we were at the place/building that laws are made. Looking at those people, their children, their families and thinking of the impact the decisions these lawmakers make will have made me emotional. I wanted to hug all of them. I wanted to scream to the top of my lungs what an injustice this was. I did briefly speak to a lady holding her baby and told her I did not support this law. I made eye contact with another and smiled at her.
We go in, sit down and start watching what was going on. I was disturbed. I was shocked as each representative got up to give their opinion on things coming up to be voted on and NO ONE was paying attention at all! People talking to each other, on cell phones talking, texting, some on computers. No wonder our government is in the shape its in! You've got a bunch of people that aren't directly affected by this stupid law that appear to not have any compassion voting on the fate of a whole group of people. Unbelievable! I just don't get it. I pray that hearts will be changed and that a different resolution that will help these children of God will be made. Please Lord!
Where does time go? Really. I feel like we just got home and it's after 9:00 pm! Bailey had a game tonight and after rushing home to get to the field we get a text that the game was cancelled. We were disappointed but happy to be home for the evening.
Tomorrow I will be going on a field trip with Bailey to Montgomery. Should be interesting and a long day!
On a heavier note..... Over the last week I have heard of so much sickness that it is just heartbreaking. A dad of a sweet 7 yr old passed away, a 3 yr old had a kidney removed due to cancer and his great - grandmother was diagnosed with stage 4 breast cancer that has spread. All of this in the same week. Join me in praying for complete healing in these situations.
Well, I have fallen off the blogging wagon and it's nowhere in sight! I am going to make an effort to catch back up. More importantly I am going to work hard on being more intentional in spending time with God, which was the reason for blogging daily. I have let life get in the way and I have a feeling this will be a lifelong struggle. Thank God He hasn't given up on me!
Of course we have been super busy with ball. Bailey is doing great and has hit a couple of home runs! Reese is not real enthused with ball but he managed to get the game ball last week. Now that pumped him up!
Last week was a week of first for Reese. He learned to ride his bike without training wheels, got his first game ball AND he learned how to make tooting noises with his hand and underarm. Yes, I am very proud! The latter of the three -- he had been trying that for a month and finally got it. Since then he does it constantly. Even in the stands at the ball field.
I thought I was just a few days behind in blogging and I realized tomorrow would have been a week! Boy am I slacking.
I am getting back on track. We got a lot done this weekend even with being at the ballpark. That is a shocker I know. However, I feel like we are back in a routine and feel at home in our house.
I will share a funny story that ended with tears. Well now that I think of it it started with tears too :). So Denson has a deer head that I refuse to let him hang in the living room. He doesn't have an office anymore so he decided to put it Reese's room. Reese was super excited. The deer head was on the floor waiting to be hung. During that time I went in his room to get him ready for a game. I walk in the room and he is hugging the deer and crying. I ask him what's wrong and he says he is so upset that Daddy killed the deer. Well bless his heart he is just like his momma!
I talked to him and got him to quit crying and told him I would carry him to the car. I guess I forgot that he's not a baby anymore. I got almost to the car and stepped on a rock or something and my ankle rolled to the side. I over compensated to the other side and ended up on the ground on my knee. Oh my goodness it hurt! I limped back to the house to not further embarrass myself. Luckily I had on blue jeans but not so lucky for the jeans. My favorite jeans suffered a tear across the knee.
It had been a looking time since I've had a skinned knee and I hope I never have another!
I am a Mom to 2 beautiful kids, Bailey who is 8 going on 16 and Reese who is 3 and ALL boy. I have been married to my wonderful husband Denson for 6 yrs. I work as a ministry assistant at my church and feel so very blessed to have a job that doesn't feel like work. God is awesome!